What are you afraid of? I think we all have fears, one of my greatest fears has always had to do with how other people perceive me. Was I good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, tough enough? Because I had these fears I was easily intimidated by others. If somebody with a big bold personality would get in my face and challenge me I usually backed down. I hated confrontation (I still struggle with it) and I would question if I was guilty, even if I knew I wasn't. In my reading of the Old Testament this week and after reading another student's post about it I realized that this was a way that Satan has had control over me in my life. I was reading Isaiah 51:7 and it says:
7 ¶Hearken unto me, ye that know righteousness, the people in whose heart is my law; fear ye not the reproach of men, neither be ye afraid of their revilings.
8 For the moth shall eat them up like a garment, and the worm shall eat them like
wool: but my righteousness shall be for ever, and my salvation from
generation to generation.
This was talking to me, when I let others intimidate me, when I am afraid, I am not trusting in the Lord. He will protect me, he will always be there for me I just need to get rid of my fear and have faith in him. I am being like Laman and Lemual from the Book of Mormon when I am letting other's control me by being afraid of them.
Laman and Lemual were on an errand for the Lord. It was an extremely important task that would affect their children for generations if they didn't accomplish it. They tried, but when they faced resistance they were ready to give up. There have been many times as a mother when I have faced resistance I have been ready to give up. I have called my husband and said "I am done". Even after seeing an angel of the Lord Laman and Lemual complained that they couldn't accomplish their task. They were afraid and army of fifty men might be sent after them. Laman and Lemual had a younger brother with them on this journey. He wasn't ready to give up. He knew what the scriptures taught and he had faith that the Lord would help them accomplish their goal. He reminded his older brothers that the Lord is mightier than all the earth, so he is mightier than fifty of even tens of thousands of men. He then proceeded to accomplish what the Lord had asked him to do. I will ask the Lord to give me strength to face my trials and confrontations and I know that as I show faith in him and his power, I will be strengthened to face the trials in my life.